oxblood_boi

Well here it is my big life update. I will put it behind a cut so it doesnt junk up your freinds pages.


I have had some problems with knee pain for several years now. Within the last year it has become a very big annoyance. With a tolerance built up to the 1600mg of motrin i was taking for pain I finally broke down and got into the VA healthcare system. Was a good move as I get free meds and visits at this time. I also filed a disability claim with the VA for my knees, having my own copy of my military medical records on hand helps(dont ask). So now i have this damn laundry list of things that the VA is treating. Knee pain, depression, anxiety, PTSD, anger and rage issues, weight, insomnia/sleeplessness, wow thats alot. I now have joined the common ranks of taking Meds everyday. 1 antidepressent, 1 antipsychotic, and a nonstandard pain med. On a good note my blood pressure was outstanding and i have lost 10 pounds the last month and a half.


In the realm of school/employment ect...... nothing is working out the way i wanted. Maybe i should join the peace corp or something. not being employeed i think may be adding to my mental and emotional deficiencies. There is a state job i applied for that would be nice to have.. Ceif of Security at McFarland Mental Health Center.

I am still dating the same girl for almost a year now. Emotionally its hard to tell whats going on. I have been kind of in a detatched state emotionally for a while now. I am sure that i love her, but am not sure if I am in love with her or ever really was. It very well could have started as a relationship of convenience on my part. I sit and try to see her in my future and its a toss up. We have some very different views on things and very different hobbies. She once asked me why none of my hobbies dealt with reality. I looked at her and said "if my hobby deals with reality it isn't a hobby." She didn't quite grasp the crossover that occurs with hobbies like the SCA. well we will see where this goes.

Hobby wise- SCA- Plan on being back this summer. I have a knee brace now and some good pain killers. Its time i get back to and surpass my fighting skills.

- Amtgard- i will probably go back at some point.

- Table top wargamming- Love it will keep it up and am going to the semifinals for the Warhammer Fantsy Ard Boyz tourney in Chitown tommorrow.


Not sure what else to write if anyone has questions ask.